first week at work

been wondering how it went for the first week of my work? for a few times, i wanted to blog it down, but i thought i'd better left it to the weekends, so as not to be overwhelmed by my feelings and emotions. so here it is.

several things i discovered abt this company. the bosses are very thrifty ppl, notice that i dun use 'stingy' cos i'm trying not to judge ppl. they save every single cent they could. i also heard that they do try to reduce commission due for salesmen. but whatever it is, i'll do my part, as i'm paid to do what i'm supposed to. but in the mean time, i'd still be looking into the recruits often.

i get up at 6.30 usually, out at 7.30, reach office at 8.30am. tough life it is, cos i am not used to waking up this early. but i believe i will get used to it. see i dun hate the job, i just hate waking up this early. and i begin to think that 1 hr of travelling every morning isn't bad at all, hey at least i hav a direct bus fr dover. maybe i shall consider not moving. but then again, the current room is really too cram for 2 persons with lots of junk each. that wud make 2 persons + 2 piles of junks. i dunno why i hav so much junks. i can't seem to get rid of them cos each has its own uses.

i realise one thing. imagination is an extremely powerful tool. things aren't always as difficult as we think it to be. somehow or other, our imagination can be more scary than what the real deal can be. really, how many times do what we imagine actually happen in real life? i went to sgh purchasing dept yesterday, this is the dept in charge of buying things for the entire hospital. there were abt 20-30 ppl in the room and i was supposed to introduce myself to them all. but i only did that to 2 persons. several Qs were in my mind: 'will they bother me at all?', 'wud i be disturbing them?', 'what if they dun show interest?', 'wat if they give me the ignorant face? or worse still, tell me to get out n dun bother them?', 'i am sure they are sick of salesmen doing this to them so maybe they won give me a damn'... etc etc... BUT NONE OF THESE REALLY HAPPENED. see, i told u imagination is my worst friend. in fact, of the 2 persons whom i talked to, they were quite friendly to chat up. i mean, even if wat if expected did happen, i wouldn't be dead, at the most i just feel bad for a while n forget abt it. THAT'S IT! rite? i shud learn how to control my mind. i thought walking up to a stranger and tell her who u r and trying to chat up was the hardest thing, but it is not, at least it shud not. bcos if it is, i'd hav seriuos problem if i want to survive in this line.

colleagues are all nice. havn't met tough times yet. i guess i am lucky. HANG IN THERE DUDE! went to HSA labs and AVA labs. there are so many labs in there, it makes me wonder what in the world they r experimenting.

supposed to hav a ppt presentation on monday. present to my colleagues and bosses. need to do lots of research. i sent my monitor home. n i dun wanna use cw's pc, if i have a choice. he is fussy abt his pc. he cannot bear the sight of his keyboard being 'placed incorrectly'. n he just slammed the door on me bcos i took the charging-mouse out of the charging base, for <1 min. y is there such freak in this world? i thought i am a freak myself, he is another one. if we ever move into a house tgt, i shall insist that we have separate rooms. i can't stand his mess n he can't stand my mess, altho we r both messy in pretty much the same way. mayb i need to learn to be more generous, or tolerant, towards him. is there a couple who r totally n naturally accustomed to each others' living habits n behaviours? do they really exist? are they the so called 'the one' in each others' eyes?

it is now 3.15pm, a day has passed and i've not accomplished much. only swept n mopped the house, read the papers, and this blog. what shud i do in order to feel 'accomplished'? i dunno... i dun understand myself, and i think i am weird. more n more weird.